a title that mentions something about not blogging for a while, self-deprecates, then indicates the drought may, in fact, be over… but no promises.
I get emails all the time from people asking me why I don’t write very much right now.
Am I sick? Am I too busy? Am I depressed? Is it Gradon’s fault? Am I spending all the time I used to spend blogging on the phone? Was blogging filling a void now filled by Gradon? Am I unable to log in to my account? Has my life taken a strange turn that leaves me unable to relate it to you in text?
The answers?
Yes. Yes. No. I wouldn’t say so. Depends on the night. Ha — no… no void. No, I can get in. And sometimes.
The truth is, I’ve never had such a busy time in my life. And I’ve never had such an exciting time in my life. And while the latter makes me want to jump online and spill my guts on this page, the former means I sometimes lack the will to come up with guts to spill.
But I always know when I haven’t been coming here to do what I do, because my brain gets far too clogged up to function.
This is my release valve, my soapbox, my wishing well, my burial ground, my self-named thing that prevents me from being TOO self-righteous about the fact that Oprah names everything after herself.
This is me.
And though I’ve been blogging since 2004, I don’t think I’ve ever had as much to blog about at any point in those five years as I have in the past year of my life.
Which, of course, is why I slowed right down.
Because I always know what to say when there is nothing to say — but doing justice to this full phase of my existence is something else entirely.
But I know I need it.
And you’re still here, right?
March 3rd, 2009 at 4:22 pm
I’m still here. :)
March 3rd, 2009 at 6:39 pm
Is “self-deprecates” the same as self-medicates?
March 3rd, 2009 at 7:11 pm
Always, Meg!
March 3rd, 2009 at 8:41 pm
Yup. Still here.
March 3rd, 2009 at 9:21 pm
Still here, too.
March 4th, 2009 at 4:48 am
Of course.
March 4th, 2009 at 10:02 am
Me too
March 4th, 2009 at 10:31 am
Still here too.
March 4th, 2009 at 1:06 pm
Also here….glad to hear that you’re OK!
March 4th, 2009 at 2:08 pm
Haven’t gone away yet. :D
March 4th, 2009 at 5:41 pm
Still and understanding and willing to wait.
March 5th, 2009 at 5:23 am
Yep. Still here.
March 5th, 2009 at 12:41 pm
I know EXACTLY what you mean. It is easy to write about life when you are not busy having one. :) Still here for you. When you want to spill it, I will be here to read it. :)
March 6th, 2009 at 11:52 am
Yup, just patiently waiting, nice to see your voice again.