being strong isn’t always an option.
My grandfather has been sick for a long time.
Cancer, heart problems, lung problems… you name it.
In the past year or so, however, things have definitely gone downhill.
Mr. Tough Ass no longer rebounds.
If you know him, you know why it’s hard to watch that happen.
They don’t make guys like him anymore — old school, crew cut, workbench, waxed car, perfect lawn… all pride and dignity and earsplitting laugh.
Mind you, we don’t always see eye to eye.
He doesn’t get what I do for a living. He asks me every time he sees me why I’m not married yet. He rolls his eyes at my liberal opinions. He makes fun of my earrings.
But he also updates me on the hockey score as soon as I walk into his house. He cried at the poem I wrote for my grandmother’s funeral. He cried again when he heard I couldn’t have my own babies.
And he thinks I’m smart (-mouthed) and beautiful and funny. Even when I’m not.
That’s why the thought of losing him always makes me feel a little adrift.
I hope it doesn’t happen anytime soon.
He’s in hospital tonight, though, so he’s on my mind.
Your Schmeaghan loves you, Poppa.
And I’m so sorry it hurts.
April 1st, 2007 at 4:22 am
I’m sorry too.
April 1st, 2007 at 4:28 am
Me, too. Lost my dad a year ago… know how it feels.
April 1st, 2007 at 7:50 am
I’m sorry, Meg. He sounds like the best possible grandfather.
April 1st, 2007 at 11:11 am
Thinking of you…
April 1st, 2007 at 11:57 am
I’m so sorry, Meg. You and grandpop are in my thoughts.
April 1st, 2007 at 1:01 pm
{{{{{ hugs }}}}}
April 1st, 2007 at 3:56 pm
Cancer sucks, heart problems suck, lung problems suck. sickness sucks. I’m sorry too.
April 1st, 2007 at 4:00 pm
sending good thoughts and big hugs…
April 1st, 2007 at 5:19 pm
Sorry to hear that. I’ve definitely been there.
April 1st, 2007 at 6:54 pm
In one short post, you were able to reveal a tremendous amount of love.
April 1st, 2007 at 9:43 pm
My Dad died of cancer. Being a big spirit, he slipped away peacefully, surrounded by those who loved him. When it has to be, it’s a good way to go & a comfort for those who remain.